thanks yogi for ur assurance that everyth's gonna be fine
i am glad tt everybody is fine now
i am e only one who is not
haha
not having a good day
been out the whole day and it was tiring
having headache
but still have to do laundry argh

this is my blog
i believe i can express whatever i like here
my thoughts
my concerns
my anger
my pain
my happiness
my feelings
it used to be just a more convenient way of keeping a diary
used to be
until one day when i decided to make it public for friends
that invited some unwelcomed guests too
i tried to make it open to invited readers only
but its way too troublesome
so i made it public again
then not only friends are able to know abt my recent happenings
seems like my life is being scrutinized by acquaintances and strangers too
however i am sure these ppl are still far from 'everybody'
my blog aint that popular to the extent that
'everybody' is reading it
i have the most about 100 visitors per day
out of the billions of ppl out there in the world
the max is only the puny weeny 100

i am not someone who is good at words
i am also not someone who will be extra careful with words
i say what i feel and what i think
i know that might offend ppl easily
but i am just me
its hard to change
if you have to think twice or thrice on every word from your mouth/fingers
life will be so tiring
wouldnt it be tiring for u too
if every word from another person lies a deeper meaning?
at least you dont have to read so deep into my words
because they are so easy to digest
they mean what they are literally
my words might be blunt
but at least i can know easily who the true friends are
those that understand me and wun get offended by my blunt words =)

i am feeling so much better now
i guess thats the reason why i am still blogging
despite all the unexpected visitors/comments
writing it down clears my mind and doubts =)

tag replies:

rong: george: pls stop trying to act smart =) jb isnt the only place in malaysia and the shilin snacks branch isnt only available in jb (even if tts the only place in malaysia u had it before =P)

rong:cr: stop saying i am xmm but i can understand that every girl is xmm to uncles =PpPpP

rong:wildfire: shhhh.. but on second thought, i think its ok to talk bad abt him here.. cos i know he doesnt really read blogs! tsk tsk..

rong: zm: i believe no news was being dissipated intentionally =)
dunno how such accident happened (my question)
its depressing to hear such news (my thoughts/feelings)
just hope she is fine (my wish)
why do so many accidents happen recently? (my questions again.. regarding OTHER accidents i know of)
pray that everybody is fine.. (again, my wish)
well, if what u dun wish to see is the name
i have removed it
i will try to prevent any name related to the team to appear in my thoughts
so that i wun accidentally agitate anyone again while penning down my thoughts
my bad for penning down my worry
its hard but i will try to learn to think abt a person while filtering the name
btw i dun think i have very big mouth
cos i eat really slow
i cant deny i have a big stomach tho =P haha

rong: myself: for someone who is so blunt at words, maybe i shouldnt think abt the ppl from the team at all since anything related to the team might be a sensitive issue.. anyone can teach me how? i am seriously thinking about this question.. because everybody is supposed to be friends? or maybe i see ppl as friends but in fact we are just teammates?