doubts

i dont know what i want
i dont know anymore

i kept thinking
thinking way too much
but no conclusion was being made
i am still confused

i still cant understand
are they so important?
important enough that
it doesnt matter to get me hurt?

i know you cant understand as well
why pain?
why hurt?
why tears?

we both cant understand each other
is that why men are from mars, women are from venus?

but even i cant understand it myself
why does it hurt so much?
so so so much..
i dont want it this way as well
who likes pain?

i am lost for words
i am lost in thoughts
i can only feel the pain that aches my heart

i need to get the thorn out
to live happily
i need to get rid of the doubts
teach me how?
would you?