"i am just always so unlucky!"

"i just dun have the luck!"

"the luck just never is with me!"

how many times have you blamed it on luck? i wont say hate, but i dont like to hear ppl saying these. why blame it on sth you cant control? change ur thinking and stop indulging in self pity, isnt it better to change it to smth u can control?

i know, you might say that i am always lucky, i can never understand. but do u really think that i am that lucky all the time? do u really think that bad things never fell onto me before?

yes, i always think that i am lucky, and i think i am lucky because i think of it so! i believe that if you think you are unlucky, luck will never be on your side. its really not the luck, its your mindset, its how you view things.

i know, not many ppl managed to retrieve their lost items, unlike me who got back my laptop which i left on a cab. but dong and xp shld know i worked hard to find it back. i made police report, i called the cab centre n times to check on the status, i called them almost once every hour whenever i am free for 2-3 days (yes, even at night as long as i was awake).

almost everyone, nope, not almost, indeed everyone was asking me to give up. everyone was telling its impossible to get it back. everyone was saying i was silly to have thought that my laptop will come back.

if you were me, how many of you will continue to believe in your 'luck'? how many of you would have given up?

i continued believe that i am 'always lucky'. i didnt listen to anyone. i continued my search on my laptop over the weekends. finally, on the following monday, i received news of my laptop! i could finally see it again at clementi police station! everyone said i was lucky. i was indeed very lucky i cant deny! because i believed, thats why luck was with me. =)

my wallet was being stolen n times (stolen, not dropped, once on a very crowded bus and once in a shopping centre during public holiday, when it was very crowded also), was i unlucky that the pick pocket always picked my pocket? i think its just because i wasnt careful enough; i have lost my phone a few times, it was again because i was not careful enough. i wasnt unlucky.

i cant blame the luck when its my own fault right? i dropped and spoilt my calculator before exam, was i unlucky? but i thought i was lucky enough that i could borrow calculator from a friend who didnt need it for the whole exam.

i always get injured here and there, i can knock my knee and elbow and everywhere even when i am moving about in my own room. why am i so unlucky?!! no, i think its just cos i am always clumsy haha!

enough of all the minor 'bad' things that happened, you will not feel your true happiness and joy if you didnt experience the anxiety right? despite all, i am still a very very lucky girl, and always will be! because i believe. =)