been slacking these few days
and been watching aces champion routine
again and again
its addictive
haha
it was almost flawless
and i really enjoyed watching it
thats why i watched it so many times
dunno how to describe my feelings
it was the first cheerobics
that i wasnt part of the routine
i was just an audience
when aces was performing out there
it was the best routine aces has put up so far
i guess it will only get better
thats why this year was better than last year
and last year was better than the first year we won..

do i regret not agreeing to ian to join them this year?
no i dont
because if i did
someone wouldnt have been in the routine
and i might not even have competed for grp stunts
which then i wouldnt have the chance to try out new things
and won myself a title as a surprise =)
it was really a pleasant surprise
as we did not really train hard for it
(i guess kah weng was the happiest guy in the group
as it was his first gold won in aces)
i guess no team really had the time to train for it?
so we won cos of the basics set and of cos
the power bases =PpPpP
if not for them
no matter how flexible i am
no matter what i can do
i wouldnt have competed
i aint light
some ppl think that we won cos our bases are strong
we had all stunts up
but i have to learn to believe tt if i do not have the skills
my stunts wun go up no matter how strong the bases are =)

being filled with too much negative thoughts instilled by others
about my weight
i had doubts in myself
but xp told me
a win is a win
it shows that we were the best on the competition ground
believe in myself
believe in our stunts
we might not have single based stunts
but we had difficulty in other ways
(though i really doubt on our difficulty level haha)
he said ppl who find excuses for our win or their lose
is just because they are having sour grapes
i felt better after talking to him =)
i dunno what his brain is made up of
sometimes he is so bad at words
that he'll make you feel worse when u r already at ur worst
but more often than not
his words are just able to clear my doubts
and bring a smile across my face
silly

i won a gold
but i lost my flexibility
cos my hamstring is badly injured
it hurts even when i am just sitting down
though i am not really showing
i wonder how was i ever able to hit the bow n arrow
when it was actually so painful
its amazing how much mind can control body =P

you lose something
and you gain the other
you cant have the best of everything
that is life
and my life has been pretty great =)
with my family
with my friends
with kareen
with him
i am indeed a blessed child~