sitting in front of the computer
and the first line i received from chatandgo in another blog:

anon1 (02:36:12 AM): FUCKIN BITCH
anon1 (02:36:30 AM): MIND UR OWN BUSINESS.

i have never been scolded with such foul words before
i dunno how to react at first
and after a while
i replied her/him
and our conversation as follow

yirong (02:37:05 AM): and may i know who are you scolding me behind fake name
anon1 (02:38:00 AM): WHY SHOULD I TELL U MY NAME? OMFG U ARE SO KAYPOH CAN.
anon1 (02:38:05 AM): AHT U DO U KNOW YOURSELF.
anon1 (02:38:10 AM): *WHAT
yirong (02:38:25 AM): haha at least i show my real name to everybody
yirong (02:38:30 AM): is it so fun scolding ppl?
yirong (02:39:23 AM): if you dun tell me why u are so angry there is nothing i can do
anon1 (02:40:21 AM): HAHA, WHATEVER. BEFORE U SLEEP TODAY, LIE DOWN ON YOUR BED AND THINK ABOUT WHAT HAVE U DONE.
yirong (02:41:02 AM): haha i dun think i have done anyth on purpose which deserve this
yirong (02:41:11 AM): if i have done anyth wrong i am always willing to change or apologize
yirong (02:41:23 AM): but not when i dunno what it is of cos
anon1 (02:41:47 AM): YOU KNOW SOMETHING? ITS HUMAN NATURE. WHEN U DO SOMETHING WRONG, YOU ALWAYS THINKS YOU'RE RIGHT!
yirong (02:42:15 AM): thats why we always need ppl to guide us along the way, to correct our mistakes and change
yirong (02:42:37 AM): i will receive negative comments with open mind but not scoldings with no reason
anon1 (02:43:00 AM): DON'T PREACH YOUR GRANDMOTHER STORY.
anon1 (02:43:04 AM): DAMN.
yirong (02:43:20 AM): if i have done anyth wrong to u, would u pls tell me
anon1 (02:45:31 AM): IF IM GONAN TELL U WHAT HAPPEN, YOU WILL KNOW WHO M I?
yirong (02:45:52 AM): but why would you wanna hide yourself since you think i am the one in the wrong?
anon1 (02:45:53 AM): SO IF I WANNA LET U KNOW, I WOULDN'T EVEN NOT NAME MYSELF IN THE FIRST PLACE
anon1 (02:46:26 AM): HEY, LETS DROP IT.
anon1 (02:46:31 AM): IM SICK OF IT.
yirong (02:46:34 AM): haha
yirong (02:46:34 AM): k
yirong (02:46:37 AM): nice chatting with you
anon1 (02:47:37 AM): AND U DUN WEAR BRA WHEN U TAKE PIC ISIT? OMG.
yirong (02:48:02 AM): oh do u know there is sth called NuBra now?
yirong (02:48:15 AM): its like the most 'in' bra the celebrities are using
anon1 (02:49:06 AM): LOL. I KNOW ABOUT IT. BUT I DON'T KNOW THAT A FREAK LIKE U KNOWS HOW TO WEAR IT.
anon1 (02:49:08 AM): HAHAS
yirong (02:50:00 AM): oh in tt case i am a freak who's called yirong and u are a nameless freak?
yirong (02:50:02 AM): poor thing
yirong (02:50:09 AM): dun make urself so angry la
yirong (02:50:24 AM): it doesnt affect me if i dunno what i have done wrong
02:51:13 AM anon1 has logged out

it sends shivers down my spine
i have nv experienced anyth like tt before
why is there ppl like this?
like.. so childish??
doing sth which doesnt help in any situation at all?
i tried to stay calm and send reply as polite as i can be
as i dun wanna stir it up somemore
i know its impossible tt i am always right
but i dun think i have done anyth SO wrong
for someone to hate me tt much
and i dunno whats the use of scolding me
and not letting me know what i have done wrong
and not even know who was scolding me
with foul words which i have nv used on anyone before
if i am wrong i should be the one who is scared right
why is she the one hiding her true identity?
(i just assumed that its a 'her')
anyway
shouldnt let this thing affect me